Rejected

My first rejection letter from BYU arrived today via email. I've been expecting it, and although I was a little surprised, and perhaps slightly insulted that they responded so quickly I wasn't at all upset about it. I still did spend a fair amount of time trying to determine whether I had already just come to terms with the idea, or if I was just was shocked and therefore too numb to feel all distraught about it. I sat there and stared at the email for what felt like a very long time before I decided that continuing to look at it wasn't making me feel more upset, and I was in fact mostly just daydreaming about unrelated things. So I closed it out and went about my business. I mentioned the letters to a few people and weirdly some of them seemed genuinely disappointed that I wasn't prepared to put on some sort of dramatic emotional display. Maybe I'm just building up to it, you know saving up a bunch of disappointment and frustration so that when the last of the rejection letters arrive I can then emotionally unload on the first poor soul who has the misfortune of asking me what's new in my life. I don't think so, but that still might be something you'll want to take into consideration next time you see me and feel tempted to strike up a conversation.