I'm really bad at going to bed. The funny thing is that when you start to keep weird hours, you find out who else does too, and it's those friends that will call you at 1am, confident that you're still up and willing to sit there chatting with them about nothing important for the next hour, supporting you in the bad habit. There was one night when I was driving home from the LBC around 2:30am one morning, and I was cruising along when Tricia called, I picked up and she asked "are you by any chance driving down Goldenwest right now? I think I'm right behind you." So we stopped and had fish tacos at Del Taco. That's the other thing, you know better than anyone what time things close, and which establishments are open 24/7. I'm not sure very many other people know that 24 hour fitness on Main St. isn't really open 24/7, and if they do, it's probably not because they tried to go workout at 1am and found out it closes early on the weekends.
I've tried to pep-talk myself into correcting the behavior before by reminding myself that I'm really breaking the WofW. The problem is that I already know that I can be a sleep deprived card-carrying member, and therefore I don't take those little talks with myself very seriously, so thus far they've been entirely ineffective. I've dated people that go to bed at normal hours, hoping that it would encourage me to do the same. Sadly they've all just ended up conforming to my hours instead. I've tried getting ready for bed really early, in the hopes that would motivate me to get in the bed earlier, also completely ineffective. The problem isn't insomnia, I can fall asleep, the problem is that I lack the self-discipline to go to bed at a normal hour.
Since I'm going to be getting up at the crack of dawn next month so that I can get off work in time to get to the trainings in San Diego I've been attempting to go to bed earlier. The problem is that now I'm discovering that my body is not accustomed to shutting down before 2am, and I just lay there in bed (okay on the 2 occasions I've managed to get to bed before 2am) feeling bored, and not at all tired. So the new goal is to figure out some way to reset my hours. I'm not sure yet exactly how, but I have this feeling it's going to have to involve some degree of sleep deprivation and I'm going to have to muster up some self-discipline. Now I'm telling myself that if I want to have a shot at going back to BYU, I need to make this happen. I feel convinced, we'll see how it goes this weekend.
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Please get yourself reset before you start the San Diego thing, or your fears of dying on the 405 may come true!
This is just another example how you and John are so much a like. I swear that guy never goes to bed at a decent hour. The bad thing is that not only does he have a hard time going to bed early, he has a hard time waking up early too. That is not a good combination when you have to be to work at 8 and your commute to work is an hour plus. But he seems to manage for the most part.I will say that when John went back to MBA school he did go to bed early then because not many teachers are forgiving when you show up late. So I guess you can retrain you body to go to bed earlier.Good Luck with your new sleep schedule!
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